I am seventeen years old. My mom got pregnant with me when she was sixteen and had me at seventeen. I was adopted by my dad when I was just about a year old. When I was seven, my parents told me I was adopted by my dad. All I wanted was for him to be my dad. But as the years went by and I got older, I struggled with issues like who I was and why was I put on this earth in such a messed up way. I didn’t understand why God would put me in this situation. It’s something I still struggle with from time to time. I also found out that I have a sister I have never met, but would like to, as well as other relatives. Not only that, but when my dad had kids with my stepmom, I just didn’t really feel like I was a part of the family. I just felt alienated from them. It hurts me deep inside to this day that I have never really felt like I was a part of my dad’s family.
I have always wondered if it would have been different if my parents hadn’t told me I was adopted. But I also wonder if they hadn’t and I found out, would I have been angry with my parents for not telling me?
A few weeks ago I read on a coffee cup that changed my perspective. It said: “You are not an accident. Your parents may not have planned you, but God did. He WANTED you alive and created you for a purpose. Focusing on yourself will never reveal your purpose. You were made by God and for God, and until you understand that, life will never make sense. Only in God do we discover our origin, our identity, our meaning, our purpose, our significance, and our destiny.”
Like I said, I saw this on a back of a coffee cup and it was written by Dr. Rick Warren. It just really put me into perspective. I’ve just worried about myself when it’s not about that, it’s about God. He put me on this earth for a reason and that should be good enough for anyone. I don’t know what my purpose in life is yet, but I hope and pray that I can serve God and follow him as best as I can.
I need to stop focusing on myself and just give all my troubles, fears, and worries to God.
So for those of you who have struggled with the same sort of things I have, know that God loves you and has a plan for you. He brought you into this world for a reason. I want to find that reason and give all I have to follow God’s will. How about you?